remorse

The temptation to just burst in to tears is very high.
Actually, her eyes had watered a few times in the elevator, bathroom, stairs, computer lab, classroom. All she had to do is just close her eyes and all those strangers will see her precious tears flowing down her face.
But her tears are just too precious.
And suddenly, she misses her God so much. She knows exactly this is a part of the consequences of her betrayal. She had managed to destroys her own foundation and, therefore, she too, will be shattered in to pieces.

She decided to take a deep breath.
and started to climb the window..and dance through the rain. It was quite enjoyable, although it is far from remorse because she knows that the rain would stop eventually, and she knows she wouldn't be able to forgive herself anyway.

She dances and wishes that one of these days, God will kisses her face like He always used to.
She dances and wishes that her tears will eventually dissolve with the soiled-smelling rain.