jenuh

andaikan manusia bisa meledak
sewaktu-waktu tanpa dikira
tanpa bom atau macam-macam bahan peledak
sewaktu-waktu karena jiwa

Jiwa begitu penuh
dengan keluh

Duduk di tengah keramaian
sibuk dengan berbagai macam pikiran
hal berguna
tak berguna
tak berguna
menumpuk, menghajar dan berputar-putar
lalu tiba-tiba meledak
kemudian tersusun lagi menjadi jiwa baru
yang melihat segala sesuatu dengan baru
semua tetap
yang berubah hanyalah caranya menatap

aku mau
bolehkah aku tunggu
untuk pecah dan terangkai kembali
untuk terbang walau jatuh lagi
aku akan kembali
tetapi sebelumnya aku perlu pergi
bolehkah?
sopankah?
wajarkah?
relakah?

Homeschooling

Jika anda menggunakan hidup sebagai kurikulum, seluruh isi dunia ini tersedia sebagai mata pelajaran.

Relationship

Sometimes,
To be in a relationship is to think of that same person 24/7
To be jealous,
To have your heart beats so crazy it freaks you out,
To miss a person until it makes you mad,
To understand and be understood,
To demand some privilege that other people cannot have,
To be spoiled and at the same time be educated,
To scream and be screamed at,
To have special times with him (and be sure that no one person in this whole wide universe will have the same kind, ‘cause it’s too damn special)
To cry like you never cry before and amaze yourself for the capacity of the tears dropping from your swollen eyes,
To swallow every inch of your ego,
To feel ignored,
To have no choice,
To hide and be found,
To run and be chased,
To be hugged sincerely,
To asked and begged to be loved – passively or aggressively
To have no pride
To learn, learn, and learn,
To care so much, too much

and with all the chaos,
in the end
to have a relationship is just TO BE.
TO just BE.
so that you can love, unconditionally.



I love u. I do.
With all my beating heart, twirling soul, dizzy mind and body.
With all of me.

-My King Kong..